So I have never really been a baby person. In fact up until I was about 23 I was convinced that I would never want to have children. Now it’s not that I have anything against babies, I have just never felt that maternal and the thought of having and raising a child never interested me.
But as soon as I hit my Early Twenties it felt like my Biological Clock suddenly started ticking and I was suddenly baby crazy!!! I would find myself gazing adorably at any random baby that I would walk past in the street. The thought of having a baby was suddenly a great wish and desire for me and I looked forward to the day that I would be ready to settle down and start a family.
And then my nieces came into the world!
They are 8 Months and 3 Years old and I love them like they are my own. As me and my sister are very close and we used to live together when my oldest niece was born, I have always played a huge part in their lives.
However by becoming an Auntie I am now very aware of just how much WORK children are!! I was there at both of their births and am very involved in their lives, so my ideas and expectations of what it will be like to bring up my own child are extremely Realistic. Sleepless nights, Temper Tantrums, Potty Training, Sickness Scares, Teething……. I’ve already experienced it all!
As I have said in previous posts, I am currently veryyyyy single. But I am getting to a point and age in my life that were I to finally meet the right guy, I would be thinking about possibly having a baby. But seeing what my sister goes through everyday, by being a stay at home mum to a baby and toddler, has made me realise just how much I am not ready to dedicate my life to another little human being.
Compared to my sister, im currently living the High Life! Such as –
- If I want to have a lie in….. I Can.
- Feel like going out with friends for a meal…… I Can.
- Want to go to the cinema….. I Can.
- Can’t manage to drag myself out of bed on a lazy Sunday morning and spend all day having a Netflix binge……. I Can.
Now I’m not saying that I would have to give all of these things up were I to have a baby, but it is very true that your focus in life switches from yourself to your child. And to be brutally honest with you all, at the moment I am just far too selfish to do this. The thought of having to dedicate all of my time to keep a little baby happy and healthy is slightly terrifying.
I feel that being an Auntie gives you the best of both worlds. You get to –
- Be the fun Auntie that your niece/nephew will run to when Mum says no.
- Get to hand them back when they….Pee, Be Sick, Throw a Fit in the middle of the supermarket!
- Get to be involved in their lives, but still have your free time to do whatever you want to do.
- And get to feel and receive the Unconditional Love that comes with raising beautiful little babies, without having all of the responsibility 24/7.
I’ve been chatting to my sister a lot about this recently, as nearly every week she asks me when I’m finally going to have a baby and make her an Auntie. My response always being not any bloody time soon!
But this has got me wondering, when will I ever get to a point in my life when I would be prepared to put all my selfishness aside and focus on my own little person?
Does anyone ever feel 100% ready to have a baby???
I have my doubts as both my sister and mum have told me that they didn’t feel ready, but as soon as their babies were born everything just fell into place and felt right.
All I know is that at the moment I am very happy to just be ‘Fun Auntie Kay’! And I will leave the worrying about being ready until I have found my Future Husband. By the way any tips on how to go about finding him would be much appreciated!! 🙂